Illness is as illness does

I want to live in a white house with a picket fence.

Where are you when I need you?
Where is the fantastic beauty that existed at the beginning of time?
Where can I lay my head?

Where is my cure for this disease?

Call me captain obvious, but..

Envy is an ugly thing
And should be locked away

Forever

In Pandora's box,
minus the Pandora.

Because we all know that her curiosity is what made you this way.

être désiré

I am all about being happy

And yeah, I'm insecure

And no, I'm not completely happy with the way things are going

But it's hard to explain without any finality. And I assure you, there is no finality. But I'm happy with my friends and what I have. For the moment.

ASDGJKL;ADSGA

I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH YOU

GET OUT OF MY HEAD, YOU FUCKING FUCK!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

FUCK.. YOU. FUCK YOUR SHITTY REASONINGS, FUCK YOUR STUPID INDECISIVENESS, FUCK EVERYTHING YOU GOT ME TO BELIEVE YOU FELT, FUCK YOU, WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS IN MY FUCKING HEAD?

FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.

God damn.

I feel a little better.

Two Nights

Can't function, nothing is real except your memory, I love you, goodnight.


aaaand I'm passing out.

Sing to me.

"Sing me something soft, sad, and delicate.
Or loud and out of key; sing me anything."

I want somebody to sing me to sleep.
Everything is the same and my eyes are glassy.
Nothing's clear, but nothing matters.

Wah wah wah wah wah.
I whine too much.
Geeeeeesh.

Shadows kept me hidden

Although we have our imperfections, our differences, I know that we, all of us, will be friends forever.

I love my friends. I really really do. Every single one.

"We only hang out with eachother because nobody else will."

Hhahaha. It's so great. I mean, we fight sometimes and get irritated with eachother but wow. It's just amazing how close we all are, like so many of us.

:)