I am really confused because my friends think I'm blowing them off

But when I listen to you sing the Postal Service and I'm sitting in the front seat of your car and you're right beside me driving and there's ice on the windows and there are good people in the back, I feel kind of infinite.

And sometimes when I'm sitting in your car and I'm listening to you sing and trying not to drown you out with my horrible caterwauling I really feel like I could be content having as my friend. But then I catch sight of your eyes and your hair and your smile and your dimples and I forget about contentment

I don't want to go to my grandparents for break
I want to spend it with you